Food and more Food

So yesterday i cant say I did really well with my eating habits. I have no excuse except I was lazy. Water was non existant yesterday..definately need to change that. So today its going to be healthy food and lots of water. Feeling good because I have gone to excersize for three days in a row and changed my sleeping habits so definately feeling better about that. Did the biggest loser video and it kicked my butt! Cant wait till I see some results from it because I know I will! Squats and more squats but I kept up and didnt pass out, completely. Ready to burn those calories and really start losing weight. I am feeling the energy difference because of excersize so I know what they say is true about endorphines and all that. Would like to add my abs, buns, and arms of steel to my workout regimine so I am getting a double dose of muscle toning. My friend katie told me she was sore, but then took an epsom salt bath and it took away all the muscle soreness for her. I am used to telling my clients that, but need a dose of my own medicine. Well I will be back tomorrow to let you know how it went today..wish me healthy eating!

Weight a second!

Oh yes it is true! With all my flubs and misguided direction, I have indeed lost weight. Are you ready? I have lost 8 lbs since starting my new life style. I am so excited! It is actually 4:30am in the morning and I am awake and kicking, and my excersize buddy katie will be here shortly to pick me up and go excersize. I know! Are you thinking what I am thinking? She's lost it! Thats right! I have lost it and some weight.

Past few days.....hmmm

Well I have done half way decently eating for the past few days. I have to admit I have not been drinking as much water as I should, and I did eat pasta, but for the most part considering PMS hit and all that I didnt do so bad.

The next big news is it is 5am in the morning when i am typing this..somewhat coherently. Yes, my good friend katie and I are going to get up early every morning and be excersize buddies! I dont mind so much with Katie because i know if I stink or dont do the right moves she wont judge me. I also know that she is good at getting up early so she will help me immensly to not oversleep.

Well anyways i am about to leave...wish me luck!

Moving foward...kind of.

So today I started out with cup of coffee and sugar..probably not the best choice. I finally ate a piece of turkey around 3pm. Went to work and had a 60z piece of ribeye and cut the fat off although I think it is a pretty fatty piece of meant anyways. Then I had two turkey wraps with onion..no lettuce or bread. Just turkey and onion. Strangely satisfying and luckily my husband works nights tonight so I dont have to breathe onion breathe on him. Just the rest of the unlucky world.

Did not wake up to excersize, I am going to try again tomorrow. Having a hard time getting up early. Don't know why. If I had a job that I had to do it for I would, but for some reason on my own its just too hard.

Weighed myself today and didnt lose any weight yet..not that I am surprised. It definately made me think that it is time to get serious! Go CANDACE Go!

Showed up in alaska!!!!

Ok I am so far off course it isnt funny. Got a little depressed and boom, hit rock bottom. Note to self stay motivated! I have decided the only way to get what I want is to change my patterns. Sleep patterns that is. Tomorrow I will wake up at 6am and do my new excersize video and get my fat butt into shape. I don't want to be fat anymore! I want to be healthy and in shape! I want to look at pictures of myself and be proud of what I see, and I want my children to have good habits! So 6am is my mountain to climb but on the other side I see happiness. BRING IT ON!

A little off course...

Ok, so yesterday went well untill the bday party..then it was calories galore. Today not much better! two hot dogs with ketchup, three pieces of bacon, and soda with sugar in it. Oh my, talk about falling off the wagon.

I was told today that I look like I am loosing weight.....motivation all over again. Tomorrow I will run and jump to get back on that wagon again and really get some things done! No more lazy candace!

Candace, this is a message to you! Get your butt in gear and love yourself and take care of yourself! No matter what it takes! Love, Candace

New years dress here I come!

Thursday, TGIF tomorrow!

So this morning I made my husband and I eat yogurt and grapefruit for breakfast...It was yummy! Something about vanilla yogurt makes the grapefruit seem sweet. I also ate two pieces of toast in the early afternoon...I know, not the best choice, but when groceries are low you do the best you can. It was whole wheat. I had two eggs for lunch. Then when I got to work I had a turkey lettuce wrap..less then a teaspoon of mayo. I was going to have chicken or salmon for dinner, but we got busy and next thing I knew we were closed. I did have coffee with no sugar and a cup of grapefruit juice. I drank a 44oz of water and another 28oz after that. I started a can of diet soda but only took two sips and forgot about it.

I know i really need to start excersizing but cant seem to get into the swing of it. I will try again tomorrow.
I know tomorrow will be hard, because it is my brother in laws birthday party. That means cake and ice cream and bad food too! I need all the strength I can get. I think I will just bring my own healthy snacks to eat so I dont go food crazy, and I am going to allow a very small piece of cake but no ice cream!

My friend chris is here in utah and he has lost a total of 120 lbs. It is amazing to see the difference in him and quite the motivator for me.


Wel goodnight to anyone who will read this! Wish me luck tomorrow!

New years dresses

This is the dress I have fallen madly in love with as my "goal" dress. What do you think?

Water Water Water!!! AHHHHHH!

Ok I have to admit that drinking water definately scares me. I am not a water drinker...I drink things with water like coffee and soda and tea and well you get my point. But today I was given some really great advice on water drinking and how to incorporate it into my life without hating it altogether. So if you are anything like me, listen up. You know how (if your like me) you go to the store to take a break or to get yourself a little treat of soda or bottled yumminess...instead, walk in, get your 32 oz or 48 if your brave and fill it up with ice just like you usually do, but this time fill it with water, not soda or somekind of fruity drink. Just plain water from the fountain. Then put your lid on it and shove that straw in and take a big healthy soda guzzling swallow of that fresh ice cold water. Walk up and pay your 15 cents (instead of the normal 80 -1.50) and walk out with your yummy good for you water and use it just like you would that soda, and be happy. I have drank, thanks to my friend andrea's advice, 64 oz of water and I barely noticed! Not only that but it kept me from craving other drinks, I didnt even have one soda today! YEAH ME!

Ok now to the day of food and cravings. I did ok except when I got to my friends house and her very nice mother offered me a cookie. I almost accepted, then quickly refused due to remembering I am on a diet, and then was told they were not that high in carbs or fat because they were pumpkin cookies. I chose to believe them and devored the whole tub of cookies all at once in front of them...just kidding. I ate one and was quite satisfied believing them and having my cookie too. Just dont tell me any differently or I might have guilt.

For lunch I had a piece of turkey on the way out the door to my massage...but when I got to work at the restaurant later I ate a lettuce turkey wrap with tomatoe and onion and less then a teaspoon of mayo. For dinner I ate a Salmon and lettuce with olives and lemon juice for flavor and it was delicious!
I did take a Formula One, which is a energy slash diet pill, I told you I would be honest. It has alot of natural herbs and supplements and does help with appetite.

I am quite pleased with myself tonight considering all the alternatives. I mean I work at a restaurant with awesome burgers and homemade fries and anything with an abundance of calories available at my beck and call..but I did not call them today.

Tomorrow I will start again and hope some of this information helps you, that is if anyone actually reads this.

Happy Weightloss and Dieting!

Morning morning i hate mornings

So I woke up this morning and tried to force myself to eat! I know everyone else eats in the morning...but I hate it and I am trying to change that pattern in myself. So I forced down three tablespoons of yogurt but could not stomach anymore! So that is 90 calories, plus i had a 100 calorie cup of grapefruit juice...I cant decide if it is worth it, but with everyone around here getting sick, i dont want to take my chances! So vitamin c here I come! Have decided scale is stupid must get a digital one...irritating! I have decided the money I earn from my massages is to be for my new business I am going to run with my friend katie. We are starting an organic face and body line with candles and soaps that only use essential oils instead of fake fragrances. They have no bad chemicals in them to preserve them and will be reasonably priced comparitavely to the ones you buy at walmart. But so much better! I am also going to have a makeup line with mineral makeups that are good for your skin and give a healthy glow! But need the fundage, and I figure I have put out my time and services to the family businesses I should at least have the little bit of money I make from my massage. The rest is in my husbands hands. So this is my first step in financially taking care of myself! Now to go look at new years dresses!

New Ideas for weightloss

So here is my list of things I ate today, I am keeping a little black notebook so I can add up my calories and fat grams and report back to you! Vegetable soup and a piece of sour dough bread 160 calories and 1 gram of fat. Water-12 oz..need more of that. Turkey wrap with lettuce, tomatoe, and onion no cheese...the veggies I don't know but the turkey is 45 calories and less then a gram of fat. 1 6oz cup of diet soda....didnt need, but it was my little treat. 2 6oz cups water. Fillet of Salmon, which normally I wouldnt have but luckily I was at work and can take advantage of the availability of food, I put grilled onions and mushrooms with no butter or grease. I just added au jous sauce and the taste was amazing! I looked up Au Jous and it has 5 calories and 0 fat grams...I mean can you get any better! Just think of all the recipes you could add in Au Jous and make a low fat, low carb meal, YUMMY! I ended my night with a no sugar cup of hot cinnamon spice tea. Altogether I think I did ok today, no real excersize, except I do massage, but tomorrow is a new day! And new years is on a count down.

Breakfast 1st Day

Two whole eggs scrambled with whole wheat toast and coffee with a little sugar...280 calories. 9 fat grams. Which is higher then I should have gone for the morning but this is my first morning...I am learning. Wow who knew how many calories and fat grams stuff has. If you have any suggestions on my diet, or know some really good foods that are healthy for me, please dont hesistate to share!

I wont tell what my actual weight is until I lose the weight I would like to lose and where I can be proud of myself. But I will say that I need to lose 80 lbs to be at my goal weight. I am not big enough to go onto biggest looser and to big to keep going this direction. I also believe that I have a thyroid problem that is preventing me from losing weight, not that it is an excuse, but it is very hard to deal with overeating and thyroid so I will go and get that check out this week. I have been tested before and was too scared to get the second test to confirm because that would mean i have to be on thyroid medicine the rest of my life and that is very scary to me. As far as emotionally, right now I am up and down, I have a very stressfull family life as most people who know me know what I am talking about, and I think that it was food or drugs and I chose food. If I had done the drugs part maybe i would have been thinner, but with no teeth. Not very pretty sight. So wish me luck! Talk to you all tonight when I finish up my day:)

I need a change

I have decided after many years that it is time to start taking care of myself. I have for years taken care of my family and put everyone ahead of my own needs...not any longer. It is time to take care of me...physically, mentally,and financially. I was supposed to start today, but of course the world is against me and I have sprained my ankle. Figures! Tomorrow I will start blogging on my dailey battle with the bulge in hopes of getting in shape for new years with my family and friends. Hopefully everyone will learn from my mistakes and successes. I will be completely honest on all foods I consume as well as any supplements I take including diet or energy pills. I will be trying a low fat, low carb, low calorie diet but nutritionally sound. Wish me luck and I hope to see a new me before the new year!